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I guess it's time for a new journal entry.
Most of my friends already know about my dad, he died this sunday. He wasn't sick or anything, he just turned 60... on sunday when I found him I couldn't wake him up. And today he will go on his last journey.
I miss him and everything feels a bit weird when I'm at home, together with Mom.
All of my plans seemed upside down that day, but I'll try to keep everything as normal as possible, I will go on my little holiday-trip visiting friends, I try to draw the pictures I wanted to do, I'll work on my cosplays.. and Mom wants to learn how to be all alone again after 25 years of knowing my Dad... I just hope she knows she's not really alone, but she says I, my sister, my aunt, all of us have there own lifes and should keep on going. Not really easy if all of my 21 years of life rotated about Dad... The least thing I ever wanted to see was.. him being sad.
Everything now is just. WEIRD.

Hope my english doesn't suck too much, but I'm not really in the mood for error-searching...
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Cosplays...BLA

2 min read
Ayame Sarutobi - Connichi Friday

Dark Jewel - 60%
I still have to finish it. And I hate lining and making the gloves =_= I start the year with about 10 pairs of gloves... *facepalm* HATE IT

Kyubei (Training)/Kaoru (Kenshin) - 95%
will be some "closet cosplay" or better.. a cosplay out of old stuff.. my hakama is black, not dark blue, but who cares, if it's from manga, not anime >D" the just have different bangs and the eyepatch.... so... if I don't find something better to wear I'll do that...

Kaoru (Kenshin) - 2%
Blue Kimono with white butterflies and laaarge obi..

Kyubei (DVD-Yukata) - 10%
Have all the materials now.. Connichi Sunday perhaps.. if I don't wear Matako Kijima.


Kyubei Samurai - 2%
....I'm so looking forward to really start this cosplay XD

Kyubei Diamondo Perfume - 100%

Cornelia li Britannia R1 - 94%
the cape is half finished.. clothes finished and a bit freestyle... it kills my brain <_<

Mitsuba Okita - 100%
I still have to redo some of the leaves on the Kimono. I already startet buying stuff for the non-flashback-version too.

Liliana (Code Geass) - 5%
I want to do this D: want want want..

Monica (KoR) - 9%
I'll start it in summer..

Super Sailor Neptun - 15%
Partnercosplay.. I feel really much to fat for at the moment

Loly released form - 2%
want want want want want want want... big ;___; expensive.. but.. somehow, someday...

Kasuga (Sengoku Basara) - 5% (Connichi Saturday)
want want want want too.. after I lost 10 kg XD..... fuck.. want want want, she's so awesome... want to throw some Kunais at my Sasuke D:!

Oichi (Sengoku Basara) - 50% (Animagic Sunday)
....She fits me somehow.. so I think I'll cosplay her someday.. *facepalm* Why do I do this..? XD

Cornelia Artbook - 2%
...Perhaps.. when I have enough time.. at the moment it's more or less canceled.. I don't have enough time *sigh*

Wedding Peach (Vol. 6 dress) - 80%
....don't ask... I hate the wig by now, but perhaps I'll finish it anyway..





Will have updates in 3 weeks on gncos.blogspot.com
Exam-time starts today..
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I don't really know why, but I just don't feel like doing some of my cosplays I planned..
I guess the ugliest part about it is, that I just don't have enough time to do it properly and after canceling/not finishing some cosplays I don't want to begin any more stuff I can't finish before the con starts.
So my plans changed a bit.
For the Soul Eater Shooting next week I'll still do the new Marie-Cosplay, even if I'm not really in the mood, but whatever, I guess we'll have fun, and because I take most of the pictures.. yeah.. whatever.. *sigh* I'm not that pretty.. not ugly, but not really pretty either. I try to be, but on most pictures I still look like shit, but I love cosplay, I love the characters I do, and I won't stop, even if I don't have great pictures like the other people I watch. The main cause I don't upload much is not because the pictures look crappy, but I do.. so yeah.. Often the costume looks crappy too, because my body does and I guess it's better to wait a bit with all the stuff, til I think it's ok to look shitty again.. at least a bit.
I'm kind of attention whore anyway (I could get more POSITIVE attention then anyone, I still wouldn't be satisfied.. fucking damn envy.. something I have in common with Loli), this Journal-entry again, talking about looking not good and everything, but if I compare myself to others it's just reality. I know, comparing cosplayers to each other isn't really a good thing, but somehow I just do it.
Whatever, I'm back to my Bleach-roots, doing a cosplay on Animagic-Friday I wanted to do since about.. 2 years or something.
The white outfit Orihime wears on this chapter-cover on the white pillows with ichigo, renji and rukia, with the violett sky and orange moon..
And there the problem again starts: I can finish the cosplay, bonuspoint, problem: the skirt is so damn short again, but it's not like I ever cared about it in my cosplays I did til now, and because I really lost some weight again I still have some hopes. I'll just do it.. and yeah.. nothing will change? I guess I have not really a choice, except I really turn cosplay down. But I just don't want to.. For this cosplay I'll dye my hair, just because I want this colour anyway..
And for Animagic Saturday and Sunday.. Loli.. yet again.
And again I'll do a lot of stuff new, hope I learned a bit out of the mistakes of the two old ones.. I just want to do her again.. someday without any mistakes, I guess too much of my heart sticks to this cosplay. For Saturday I have a little group, for about half of sunday I even have a Menoli. Hope for some Grimmjow, too <3 And Orihime.. (kinda stupid I cosplay her just the day before)

And for next year.. Lolis released form, I have to do it. It's, beside the group-cosplays, the only other cosplay I won't turn down, til it's finished.
But enough of me writing this stuff. Hope my mood will turn out a bit better til Animagic.. til my Exams are over.. just needed some place to write this down. I'm not in the mood for using livejournal right now.. and attention for this.. I'll still have to wait again, like.. yeah.. most of the time.. but I don't comment others often, so what do I expect?
It's just again my own fault anyway.. every time I begin to understand it, it's a bit.. yeah.. saddening.. just for being so dumb.
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National Meme

4 min read
From Tutiya's Journal xD


British
[x] You drink a lot of tea.
[ ] You know what a brolly is.
[ ] Deal or No Deal has taken over your life.
[ ] You wanted Ben to win X Factor.
[ ] You use the word "bugger"or the phrase "bloody hell."
[x] Fish and Chips are yummy.
[ ] You can eat a Full English Breakfast.
[ ]you have been called emo
[ ] Its football...not soccer.
Total: 2

Australian
[ ] You wear flip flops all year.
[ ] You call flipflops thongs not flip flops.
[ ] You love a backyard barbie.
[x] You know a barbie is not a doll.
[x] You love the beach.
[x] Sometimes you swear without realizing.
[ ] You're a sports fanatic.
[ ] You are tanned.
[ ] You're a bit of a bogan.
[ ] You have an australian something
Total: 3

Italian
[ ] The Sopranos is a great show.
[ ] Your last name ends in a vowel.
[x] Your grandmother makes her own sauces.
[x] You know how a real meatball tastes.
[ ] You know Italian songs.
[x] You have dark hair and dark eye color
[ ] You speak some italian.
[x] You are under 5'10''
[ ] You know what a italian horn is
[x] Pizza/spaghetti is the best food in the world!!!
[x] You talk with your hands.
Total: 6

Spanish
[ ] You say member instead of Remember.
[ ] You speak spanish or some.
[ ] You like tacos.
[ ] YoU TyPe lIkE ThIs On Da CoMpUtEr.
[ ] You are dark skinned.
[ ] You know what a Puta is.
[x] You talk fast occasionally.
[x] You have had highlights or have dyed your hair.
[ ] You know what platanos are.
Total: 2

Russian
[ ] You say villian as: Vee-lon.
[x] You get short tempered.
[x] You know of somebody named natasha.
[x] You get cold easily.
[x] Rain is fun for you.
[ ] You get into contests all the time.
[ ] You can easily make do with the cold weather.
Total: 4

Irish
[ ] You think beer is the best.
[ ] You have a bad temper.
[ ] Your last name starts with a Mc, Murph, O', Fitz or ends with a ley, on, un, an, in, ry, ly, y.
[ ] You have blue or green eyes.
[x] You like the color green.
[ ] You have been to a st. pattys day party.
[ ] You have a family member from Ireland.
[ ] You have blonde hair.
[ ] You have/had freckles.
[ ] Your family get togethers always include drinking and singing.
Total: 1

African American
[ ] You say nigga/nukka casually
[ ] You have nappy hair.
[ ] You like rap.
[x] You know how to shoot a gun
[ ] You think President George Walker Bush is racist.
[x] You like chicken.
[x] You like watermelon.
[ ] You can dance.
[ ] You can 'sing' gospel.
Total: 3

Asian
[ ] You have slanty/small eyes.
[x] You like rice a lot.
[x] You are good at math.
[x] You have played the piano.
[ ] You have family from asia.
[x] You laugh sometimes covering your mouth.
[ ] Most people think you're chinese.
[ ] You call hurricanes typhoons.
[ ] You go to Baulko.
Total: 4

German
[x] You like bread.
[x] You think German Chocolate is good.
[x] You Speak some German.
[x] You know what Schnitzel is.
[x] You hate it when stupid people call you a Nazi.
[x] You went to Pre-school.
[x] You're over 5'2 (I’m 5’3 XDDDD°)
Total: 7

Canadian
[ ] You like/play/played hockey.
[ ] You love beer.
[x] You say eh.
[ ] You know what poutine is.
[x] You speak some french (Not much, but a.. bit..).
[ ] You love Tim Horton's.
[ ] At one point you lived in a farm house.
[ ] You watch/watched degrassi
Total: 2

American
[ ] You hate foreigners.
[ ] You hate non - Christians.
[x] You're lazy.
[ ] You are not cultured.
[ ] You hate abortion.
[ ] But love the death penalty.
[ ] You don't read.
[ ] You shop at walmart.
[ ] You think this survey is rather biased.
Total: 1


Em,.. yeah.. why isn’t there any part about being French? XD°
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That's life...

1 min read
Hnn.. yeah.. actually I just wanted to update my journal a bit.. but now..
depressed about naruto chapter 328... stressed because of school.. happy because of friends.. confusing..
*sigh*

much to troublesome.. uU
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